[ • there's just so much time cannot erase • ]

well i'm busted...

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 16:56:35 GMT

seeing as i went to go dye my hair yesterday to take away that moss green tint, I went and bought Herbal Essences Bold and Brilliant Hair Color. (that was my worse mistake..EVER!) Not only did it turn out extremely dark...Willie hates it. *sigh* I just wanted something different. I didn't want to be the ditzy little blonde anymore...so hopefully...everything will be fine and my hair will lighten up in the next couple of days. To have to feel his disappoint...it truly sucks. *sulks*

On a lighter note, my mom actually made a funny. Seeing in recent events, Britney Spears had dyed her hair black (or dark brown...whichever tabloid states it), and my mom asked if I was trying to mimick my idol's new look. For one...I would NEVER dye my hair black (cause I don't have the money to get the color stripped out of my hair) and two...its just a bitch to try to lighten it again. So my safest bets have just been staying in the dark browns. but yeah...

and here's the August cover of Bazaar magazine featuring Brit. (personally i like her dark hair...she had it for her video "toxic" for one of her personas and i thought it looked great! plus, it saves my eyes from looking at that blinding blonde look all the time)

Poor Britney...

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 03:13:58 GMT

This was an entry on an unofficial fansite :: http://www.britneyspears.bz

"...The TOXIC singer received a barrage of criticism for appearing on [Dateline] in a sheer, low-cut top, denim mini-skirt and flip-flops earlier this month. She reportedly insisted on doing her own hair and makeup for the interview and was slammed for appearing "dishevelled", with the New York Post reporting that fans called her hair a "rat's nest". A source tells American publication Us Weekly after the interview, "She felt terrible. She pulled out her extensions and bought a bottle of dark hair dye. "She didn't understand her image problem until the negative feedback about Dateline." Spears' representative insists the singer checked with her doctor first to see if dying her hair was safe for her unborn child adding, "It's vegetable dye and will wash right out." She then chopped her hair into a short bob, neglecting to tell editors of fashion magazine Harper's Bazaar, who were featuring her on an upcoming cover, what she had done. Spears showed up at the cover photo shoot last Friday with her new look and according to Us Weekly, the magazine's editors were "horrified". Stylists for the shoot had to work quickly to undo the damage and decided to add brunette hair extensions at the last minute."

Now this is just messed up. Not only is she being slammed for being an "irresponsible" mother, but now the media is targeting her image. Sure, Miss Spears has always held the hot spot for her racy image, but I believe that the media has crossed the line and violated it. BIG TIME. They are causing this poor young woman to go through stress levels that even a war veteran couldn't even begin to fathom.

Sure, Brit looked disheveled in her interview, but guess what...tell me one REAL new mother that looks absolutely flawless. With kids, they just simply don't have time for themselves. If you have your own kids or if you've had to take care of them, you should know that you don't really have time to yourself. Now these other celebrity moms that look like they just acted pregnant for a couple months then got rid of the body makeup instantly, they probably have nannies or other people to watch the kids so they can have time for themselves. So they have time to concentrate on the "Hollywood Image" train.

Give Britney a break and just back off. And for those of you who are saying crap like "oh god she's so fat!" HELLO!? She's pregnant you morons! And she didn't really have a big time window between Sean's birth and the new baby to lose all the baby weight. It happens. Just PLEASE let her live her life. Like she said in her interview with Matt Lauer, "You have to realize that we're people too." And she is (also a tad bit richer than us average class folk...but she's earned it).

I believe that we should ban Papparazzi from taking anymore pictures of her for the time being so she can raise her kids in peace. And if they do, their magazine has to pay a fine.

I know Britney will never read this, but I hope those of you with a beating heart will and understand what you're doing to another human being. You're killing her. And just because you don't seem to like her, there are her loyal fans who still stay strong and true who DO admire her and want to see her be happy.

So bottom line about her appearance...I've seen some pretty ugly fat chicks in my day and you know what? Britney isn't anywhere near that. She's showing you that she's REAL. Not an airbrushed overly photoshopped pop star. Just give her some peace.

If I could turn the page in time then I'd rearrange just a day or two

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 02:47:35 GMT

Aaaaand...here I am. Got to school early and now I'm freakin' bored. I hate it when I do that. I over compensated my time and the traffic so POO! Anyhoo, tonight's my last night of class. I'm feeling kinda bittersweet about it. Glad that I have my nights back, but sad that I don't have an outlet anymore to escape the psychotic grandmother. Damn.

Let's see...me and Willie are doing better than ever. Which is good. Christ, I think I spent the night in his room for like, a week and a half. It's fun. I don't know what I'd do without that goober. And I still have him in my life. See ladies, ya just gotta have determination and faith. AND ENDURE WHATEVER COMES. Okay here's a few quotes for right now...

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful." -Corinthians (forgot what verse and chapter)

"[She] saved my life. She taught me everything. About life, hope and the long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it." -Landon Carter, A Walk to Remember

Okay this has got to be my favorite part in A Walk to Remember...

Jamie: Are you trying to seduce me?
Landon: Why? Are you seducible?

it all comes full circle...

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 04:36:53 GMT

well i guess everything's okay. for now. me and willie are getting along better than ever. and i'm loving every minute of it. i'm just pissed off at a couple of people that really screwed him over. it wasn't fair. but anyways. class is fine. our firearms instructor is hella old. so old that when he talks, its muffled. creepy huh? the most important class and you can't even hear what the hell the man is saying. anyhoo...i'm done for now. its me and trissa's night! ciao babes!

♥♥♥

you are never alone

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 04:44:33 GMT

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And boy you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

I want you to feel you need me...

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 18:37:36 GMT

There you are
In a darkened room
And you're all alone
Looking out the window
Your heart is cold and lost the will to love
Like a broken arrow

Here I stand in the shadows
Come to me, Come to me
Can't you see that

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing to hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life
Nobody wants to be lonely so why
Why don't you let me love you

Can you hear my voice
Do you hear my song
It's a serenade
So your heart can find me
And suddenly you're flying down the stairs
Into my arms, baby

Before I start going crazy
Run to me, Run to me
Cause I'm dying

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing to hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life
Nobody wants to be lonely so why
Why don't you let me love you

I want to feel you need me
Just like the air you're breathing
I need you here in my life
Don't walk away, don't walk away
Don't walk away, don't walk away
No, no, no, no

Nobody wants to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
Nobody wants to be lonely
I don't want to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry
I don't want to cry
My body's longing to hold you
I'm longing to hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life
Nobody wants to be lonely so why
Why don't you let me love you
Why don't you let me love you
Why, oh why, why, why, why, why

Nobody wants to be lonely
I don't want to cry
Nobody wants to cry
My body's longing to hold you
So bad it hurts inside
Nobody wants to be lonely
I don't want to be lonely
Nobody wants to cry

however far away :: i w i l l a l w a y s l o v e y o u

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 01:04:24 GMT

.....what if he stays? .....

.....will i lose him f o r e v e r? .....

........i don't think i can live without him.......

.....i N E E D you....

......L O V E is F O R E V E R.........

......isn't it?......

L O V E :: you can't give it away

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 00:21:10 GMT

g h o s t i n y o u :: m a r k m c g r a t h
A man in my shoes runs a light and
All the papers lied tonight
But falling over you
Is the news of the day
Angels fall like rain
And love (love, love)
Is all of heaven away

Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade
The ghost in you
She don't fade
Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade

A race is on, I'm on your side and
Here in you my engines die I'm
In a mood for you
Or running away
Stars come down in you
And love (love, love)
You can't give it away

Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade
The ghost in you
She don't fade
Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade

Don't you go
It makes no sense when
All your talk and super men
Just take away the time
And get in the way
Ain't it just like rain?
And love (love, love)
Is only heaven away

Inside you
The time moves
And she don't fade
The ghost in you
She don't fade

:: :: :: :: ::

Well its Christmas eve. Well...Yippee Kai Ey Mutha fuckah! Yeah okay whateva. I just feel...like everything around me is going great but when I finally focus on myself, everything crumbles. All I want for Christmas is to be in love and belong to somebody. Well shit if I don't get that...that can be my wish for New Years, Valentines Day, St. Patty's Day....shit I'll find a fuckin' holiday somewhere...

I would like to tell my friends and family that I wish them a happy holidays..no wait...MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS! There we go...that works MUCH better. But all sarcastic humor aside, I love you guys. And I wish the best for each and every one of you. Life is like a road, and you're going to find alot of spots that have fucking steel plates over them. Just take each one delicately or you're going to blow out a tire and hit a tree. (Not saying that I speak from experience ha...no seriously...i've never hit a tree...with a car. roller blades...thats a whole different story that i don't have time to share..so..MOVING ON!)

Angie :: don't worry...i'm here for you if you need to talk...

Aimee :: que onda bitch?

Willie :: since you're all tied up in myspace, you'll never read this. but i'm so much in love with you. not in the "obsessive stalker" way...i just...really believe in you.

"You can't tell your heart who to love. And it chose him. Your faith and hope is what keeps you sticking by his side. All in all...you're his guardian angel." ~M e l o d y

(thanks Melody for the talks ^_^ )

...all these kisses will never ever touch me...

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 17:17:06 GMT

days turn into weeks...weeks turn into months...and then eventually they age into years.

of course i have to open my journal with a spiffy little opening. ^_^ I'm so excited that Angie's here now. It's great having her to talk to. I mean damn last night we talked for about 6 hours straight. And I would like to thank Jeff for getting us free Cinnabons. Oh GOD those were frickin' righteous! Delicioso! MWAH! Anyhoo...I wish she didn't have to go back. She's the only person I can really talk to anymore. Aimee, sorry but you seem so wrapped up in Sergio lately, I don't really want to bother. Trissa, she's probably tired of hearing what I have to say. So...I kind of feel abandoned in a way. Having no one to run to when my heart is in peril.

And I'm waiting for it..."Karen..get over it move on." At this point. SHUT THE HELL UP. If I was over it, I would've been in L.A. living with my dad right now. But there's always something lingering in the back of my mind telling me to stick to him and don't let him out of my life. Everything in life is worth fighting for, it just all depends on how much you're willing to spend to fight for what you want. And nothing in life comes easy, which makes you fight for it even more. So...thats my take on it, if you still don't understand me, well that's not my fault. So respect my wishes and step down. I already have my mind set, and nothing anyone says is going to change it. So save your breath and move onto another subject. Anyhoo...I believe this is all that I'm going to write for now. I love you all and Blessed Be..

♥ Karen

Angie- Welcome home...I missed you!

its gonna kill me to see you with the next girl cause i'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of exgirl

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 17:20:49 GMT

There are some days I believe that God has shafted me. Again and again. And yep, I'm back on my cynical depression rant. I don't like as much as the next person, but I guess the one guy that does this to me, I just HAD to be head over heels in love with. God, I must be retarded or something...

He gets pissed if I hang out with guy friends (in which, take notes...me and him are both single) but when I make a rude comment back such as "okay have fun hanging out with your whores." he simply brushes it off and goes on with his "swell" evening. I mean COME ON DAMMIT! In the desert, he was a different kind of person. A person that I love. But as soon as we get back to the city, he's back to the way he once was. A jerky bastard. I just want to know why. 'Cause I seriously don't understand it.

How can you do that to someone? Just use them for whatever you and want and just walk away? How the fuck can you sleep at night after you use me? HOW?! It baffles me. It truly does. I believe I've never done anything to get this treatment. I guess caring and loving someone is a bad thing. Yeah my little theory was right..

"I was a little girl when daddy went away. And what did that teach me? That love leaves."

This is not fair to me. But then again, what does my opinion matter anyway?

mess with the bull...you'll get the horns

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 17:35:03 GMT

You are the Greek goddess Aphrodite, also known as
Venus to the Romans. You are the goddess of
love, lust, desire and fertility. You have been
called the most beautiful of goddesses and
undoubtedly the most desirable. But you are
also known for your hot temper, and the ease
with which you grow jealous of women that
profess to be more beautiful than you. You also
own a special girdle which has the power to
drive men insane with desire. Since you were
born of the sea, from which you came to land
riding on a scallop shell, sea food has been
known as an aphrodisiac.

Which GREEK (or ROMAN) GODDESS are you? (Girls Only)with pictures! in results
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lights..camera.....KAREN!! WHERE DID YOUR CLOTHES GO?!

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 17:03:08 GMT

holy crap...its been a LONG time since i updated. but eh...being addicted to myspace would do that to a person. well let's see, i haven't changed much. still the same idiot pining after a guy who continues to hurt me (not physically so don't worry). it just makes ya think, what have i really done to be treated this way? but by being burned so many times, i'm numb to the pain. i can't feel it anymore. but oh well...

let's see....exciting news. OH YES! next month Angie is going to take me to a whole bunch of casting calls and open auditions and such. She wants my butt out there and getting some coverage. Psh, if I can make it in the industry that would make me feel SO good. You don't even know... If I get famous and stuff, the people that made my life completely miserable can simply KISS MY ASS.

I'm waiting for Aimee to get ahold of me for her final project piece. I'm supposed to be her winter...so...its kinda exciting. anyhoo...i'm still battling the illness of the flu, but as soon as i'm better...I'm conquering Southern California so watch out...

♥ karen

i gave...not wanting anything in return...stupid me. i wanted your love.

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 21:46:14 GMT

man....i fucking hate the world around me. and right now, all the hate is centering on one individual. if you don't know who i'm talking about...then you're stupid.

i always wished for the best between us, but now since he met that girl, he's even thinking about moving. which is dumb. don't relocate yourself because of a girl. all i can say is that i gave my heart, body, and soul to him. always wanting to be there for him if anything bad happened to him. if he was in trouble, i'd want to be the first one there. but now as i sit and think about it, i'm an idiot. all i did was give and give and give...and what did i get back in return? a big heeping helping of pain and negligence. so yeah, go away and be with that girl then. when she ends up either a.) pissing you off with flirting with other guys -or- b.) breaking your heart, i don't want to be the one to comfort you. cause i guess its just starting to be a waste of time. in a matter of 3 weeks, you have managed to rip my heart out and staple it to the wall, played me like a fucking card game, and betray me.

that night when me and trissa brought her MALE friends to oasis, yeah you got a little jealous didn't you? but what did i tell you?

"i would never do anything to hurt you."

'do you swear on our love?'

"yes i do...i swear on our love."

but...where is the love? i don't see it. i can't keep playing this game anymore. i'm not your little toy that you can play with whenever you like. please, stop leading me on with a promise of great times and end up discarding me whenever a body with boobs decides to pass by. no one can love you like i did. i put up with so much to be with you, and i still do just to be friends with you. oh well...i guess i really didn't matter to you afterall. if i did, i doubt you would be treating me like this.

...sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile...

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 07:39:40 GMT

I know there’s something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark

Listen to your heart when he’s calling for you
Listen to your heart, there’s nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams

Listen to your heart when he’s calling for you
Listen to your heart, there’s nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

And there were voices that want to be heard
So much to mention but you can't find the words
His scent of magic the beauty that’s been
Well I was wilder than the wind

Listen to your heart when he’s calling for you
Listen to your heart, there’s nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why
But listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart
I don't know where your going and I don't know why
Listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

There ain't no crime in havin' a lil fun...

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 06:37:43 GMT

aah what a day. i got to go see the dukes of hazzard. oh dear god. johnny knoxville was fucking great! i love him! me and trissa had a hell of a time just makin' eachother laugh. god it was a good day. ^_^ although i still wish that i could be spending time with a certain someone. oh well. life sucks. wear a helmet. hope everyone is still alive. i love ya'll and blessed be!

♥ karen

p.s. "what do you get when you cross a donkey with an onion? a piece of ass that brings a tear to your eye." ~uncle jesse, dukes of hazzard, the movie

A Birthday to remember....

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 16:46:16 GMT

Wow...thats all I have to say for this birthday. It totally tops all my previous ones, I'll say that much. lol

Let's see...it all started when Willie decides to call me at midnight to wish me a happy birthday. Cute. Well he had me laughing so hard I couldn't go back to sleep, but I managed. Then I woke up, got a call from my dad and my sister. which was RIGHTEOUS! lol okay not really. I come down to CV to see mom and dad and Willie. That was cool. Me and Willie went down to Best Buy to get some cds. I bought Killswitch Engage and Willie fucking bought a whole mess of ICP cds. (oh dear god I've never heard the word "fuck" so many times in just ONE song!) Then we stopped by Taco Bell and got a light lunch. Then we came back to the house and Aimee called me saying that her and trissa were ready to go to the beach so, I left and got those two monkeys. We get all the way down to Coronado beach (playing License Plate Bingo...as always..in which Arizona no longer counts. lol right Aimee?) We get down there seeing no parking and saw that it was a little cloudy, so we turned back and went and picked up Albie. ...oh god...then the real fun started. We all went back to Willie's where I got my gifts. Thank you girls...I love them! Willie, Dan, and Joey were all present to make my day a living hell (lol but it was SOOOO much fun). Then Trissa and Aimee were scheming something in the kitchen and came out with a dingdong cupcake with a little tealight candle sittin' on it. So cute. Then as we are all enjoying the deliciousness of the chocolate, Trissa takes a chunk and smears it all over my chest. NICE. Grr...Alrighty then...I see how it is. Then we all get this brilliant idea to go to Hillcrest. (oh dear god...now I know why my mom never drove me over there...good granny...) We went to this little coffee shop called the Living Room. Nice. Strong coffee but nice little place. Then we leave to go down to Oasis. We got the Squirt hookah this time. heh...citrusy. Then Willie and the boys showed up and Willie sat on my lap (damn boney ass...lol) But all in all the moments yesterday were...PRICELESS!! But anyhoo...thats all for one birthday. I can't wait for next year...it'll be GOOOOOOOOOD! Love ya'll and Blessed Be!

♥ Karen

Say you love me as you look at me softly...

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 05:31:05 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

I want to be free of you, as you have obviously freed yourself of me.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 17:44:52 GMT

Why do people feel like its their business to jump in and ruin other people's lives? I don't get it. And if you ARE gonna do it, you might as well say it to my face, not over a god damned text message. I'm so aggravated by this crap that I'm ready to write ALOT of people off. I'll shut down and that'll be the end of those friendships. I do not like to hate people or have to be malicious to protect myself, but I guess thats what I'm gonna have to do now. It's going to be hard, but I have to do it. For me.

I appreciate the love and support from my TRUE friends, I know you guys are always there for me. Thank you. For those who like to take my life in your own hands and play with it, FUCK OFF! You're pathetic morons who have nothing better to do. And oh yeah...don't talk shit about me to your friends, then act totally different to me when we talk.

Willie: You know...I thought I knew you. I guess not. I can't even recognize you anymore. You said you didn't want to see me hurt. Well, YOU are hurting me. You need to take a break from your "friends" and take some time for yourself and figure shit out. You need to straighten a few things out.

Other than that...my life as we know it is about to change. ALOT

FADE TO BLACK
♥Karen♠

"Forget me, forget all of this.
leave me alone.
forget all you've seen.
go now, don't let them find you.
swear to me, never to tell.
the secrets you know of the Angel in Hell."
~The Phantom of the Opera

take me where you are...

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 02:15:57 GMT

Jessica:
there are times
i swear i know your here
when i forget about my fears
feeling you my dear
watching over me
my hopes seek
what the future will bring
when you wrap me in your wings
and take me...

chorus:
where you are
where you and i will be together
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
when i can be, where you are

nick:
and i can see your face
your kiss i still can taste
not a memory erased

jessica:
oh how i see your star
shining down on me
and i do anything

(together) if i can just..be right there..

repeat chorus

where you are
where you and i will be together
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
(and you'll be smiling back at me)

only then will i be free
then i will be free
so take me where you are

nick:
now baby there are times when selfishly
im wishing that you were here with me
so i can wipe the tears from your eyes
and make you see
everynight while you are dreaming
im here to guard you from our fall

(together)and anytime i feel alone
i close my eyes and dream of...

repeat chorus

where you are
where you and i will be together
(and we will be together baby)
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
(we'll be dancing in the moonlight)
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
(and you'll be smiling back at me)
only then will i be free
then i will be free

(together) baby i still believe
oh i got to believe
( i still believe)
i will touch you that sweet day
(that sweet day)
that you take me there
where you are
i still believe
oh i got to believe
(i still believe)
i will touch you that sweet day

(that sweet day)
that you take me there
where you are
oh oh where you are
i still believe...fade
then i will be free
so take me where you are

I'll tear my heart open...just to feel again...

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 05:24:49 GMT

Today was a very trying day for my emotions. Saw some words that I was just NOT ready to see. I know everyone needs to move on and all...but...this just kinda caught me off guard and made me think...why do this to me and flirt with me like everything was peachy keen? I don't get it. Till this hour, I'm still puzzled.

I just hope that I don't get into one of my deep depression stages where I don't eat anything for weeks. That would not be good. Not good at all...I don't like to hurt myself, but I end up doing it anyway. Remember::

"Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive."

I'm not trying to alarm anyone. Just makin' them aware.

For those of you who stood by me through all of the stress and tragedy: Thank you. If anything, you've kept me alive longer. If I didn't have the friends that I do, I'd probably be six feet under and worm food. I love you all...although there are some I love more than others. You know who you are.

Love ya'll and Bless-ed Be!

♥ Karen

Oh...BY THE WAY....I just hit a rabbit on my way home tonight coming down Willow Glen Road...then I creamed another one coming up my driveway. Oy...not good at all. *sniff* I feel like such a MURDERER!!!

I DoNT LiKe To Be aLoNe iN THe NiGHT...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 17:14:30 GMT

Yeah well...last night's excursion to Oasis was an interesting one. Willie looked so damned HOT! SHIT! Okay...I'll settle down now I promise. It was Me, Trissa, Aimee, and Angie. We first got the Cherry one and eh...it was okay...it was better the other night though. Willie kept coming over to talk to us which was pretty cool. Then after a couple hours, Jeff shows up and we get another Hookah (*eyes glaze over*). We got "The Raging Nympho" (geesh, the names they give some of these flavors) it was pretty nice. With a rose-like after taste but I'll learn to like it. Then after a while, I wasn't feeling all that great so we decided to leave. I get home and I check my myspace and see a comment from Willie (hehehehehe) nice comment. lol Alrighty well, I need to start getting my stuff together so I can go home today. I love ya'll and Bless-ed Be!

♥ Karen

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 04:07:32 GMT

Well wow...I got to do hookah. Now THAT was some fun shit...although Brian is calling me and Aimee "chronic smokers" its alright. Lots of stuff has been going through my mind. And for those of you who are being dragged through my personal hell...I'm sorry.

Being able to talk to Willie last night was like...the coolest moment on earth. EVER! It brings back old times ^_^ hehehe hehehe Anyways....I'm gonna keep this entry short cause well...I'm just not in the mood to write that much anymore. I'm still writin' lyrics, but they're not ready to be posted online for public view. Alrighty...love ya'll and Bless-ed Be!!

♥ Karen

Close your eyes...let your spirit start to soar....

Tue, 31 May 2005 02:51:53 GMT

WHOO! I am so proud of myself! I actually changed a tire today! All by myself and bare-handed too! My mom was watching me and kept making me laugh when I was trying to use the jack on the explorer. I told her if she didn't stop doing that I was gonna shove the jack handle where the sun don't shine...which just prompted her to make me laugh even harder. Jesus Christ...everytime I try to get something accomplished...my mom makes me take longer in getting it done. Criminy!

My first weekend home has been okay...not what I wanted..but I don't have any other choice. When I'm supposed to be spending time with my mom, she's too busy hanging with Dean and Mary. It kinda sucks...she spends more time with her friends than she does with me, her own kid. What a sucky feeling. But oh well...

OKAY! Talk about freaky...last night I was listening to my Phantom of the Opera soundtrack before I go to sleep, and I don't know why but Willie pops into my head. After reminiscing on past memories, I shut my eyes drifting off to sleep. When all of a sudden my phone goes off and scares me to high heaven! It was a text from Willie. I mean it was addressed to other people besides me. I just thought it was freaky though. Alrighty well I'm done. I'm gonna go watch Valentine. Oh yes...David Boreanaz. YUM! Goodnight ya'll and Blessed Be!

♥ Karen

you know all my pet peeves, you try to get under my skin...

Thu, 26 May 2005 01:41:09 GMT

Your Deadly Sins

Wrath: 80%

Envy: 40%

Gluttony: 20%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Sloth: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 29%

You will die in prison, in a puddle of your own blood.

How Sinful Are You?

Star Wars Horoscope for Cancer

You may whine at times, but you've developed a thick hard shell (like that of a crab).
You are strong willed and persistent - until you get what you want.
You never shy away from a fight, even when things get dangerous.
Mentally sharp, you are starting to master the elements of mind manipulation.

Star wars character you are most like: Luke Skywalker

What is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

I want you to stay in my life...

Thu, 19 May 2005 04:44:42 GMT

I've seen your face a thousand times
Have all your stories memorized
I've kissed your lips a million ways
But I still love to have you around

I've held you too many times to count
I think I know you inside out
And we're together most days
But I still love to have you around

And you're the one I want and it's not just a phase
And you're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time

You're a salty water, ocean wave
You knock me down, you kiss my face
I know the storms will always come
But I still love to have you around

And Heaven knows what will come next
So emotional, you're so complex
A rollercoaster, built to crash
But I still love to have you around

You're the one I want and it's not just a phase
You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)

It's you there when I close my eyes
And you in the morning
I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around

Don't go away
My love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away
My lover (my love)
I need you, you're my love supply

Don't go away
My love (you're my love supply)
I want you to stay
In my life (every day, every night)
Don't go away
My lover (you're my love supply)
I need you, you're my love supply